Does it get any better?

Today, I am grateful for my thumbs.

So as it turns out, my Internet is gone indefinitely so I figure I might as well get used to phone writing.  This could be good.

I was just sitting here thinking about how at peace with rejection I am now. I've been on a million job interviews and have been denied them all. When it first started happening I was outraged.   I went ballistic--in my head anyway. It took me a really, really long time to process the whole thing. But then it kept happening again and again. So I've had to figure out a way to deal with it.

It actually reverted me back to a place that I'd completely forgotten I'd ever been. Before I went to college, I had no faith in my abilities.  I felt dumb.  School was always really hard for me.  I could never figure out how to apply myself enough.

So I was back at that place not too long ago.  Feeling like an idiot.  Unsure of myself.  Actually thinking, that's cute, you had a COUPLE good jobs and you blew it thinking you were better than you actually are!  I was beat up dude.  For serious.  It was scary.

But now I've taken a step back and looked at the big picture and changed my whole perception of rejection.  These people (clowns) that are choosing to not hire me don't represent some club of the world that I'm not good or smart enough to fit into. They just represent one (or how ever many) person's opinion. I don't need to win the world's approval to be successful (in my eyes anyway). Shit in most cases, all it takes is one. 

Is this thing on?

My Internet came and went so I downloaded an app for my phone. Testing...

These cookies that I saw are completely unrelated.

Dooooooooddd!!! I haven't had Internet since early January!  But it's back!  And I shouldn't be this happy!  But fuck it!  I AM!  Wahoo!  

That's is all for now!  Hasta la pasta.

PS It's not Friday the 13th unless Freddie is at Camp Crystal coming up out the lake on bitches mkay?